Xoxo, Nicole
Three degrees, countless personality tests, and enough self-help books to fill a library. On paper, I was crushing it. In reality? I was drinking two bottles of wine a night, stuck in toxic relationships, and desperately trying to validate my existence through external approval.
Think less "living my best life" and more "hiding from my real life."
But here's the thing about running from yourself—eventually, you run out of places to hide. For me, that moment came through complete paralysis. Guillain-Barré Syndrome left me unable to walk, blink, or care for myself in an Austrian hospital where no one spoke English. (Talk about a forced meditation retreat.)
The physical recovery was just the beginning. What followed was a deep dive into everything I'd been avoiding:
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But here's the thing about running from yourself—eventually, you run out of places to hide. For me, that moment came through complete paralysis. Guillain-Barré Syndrome left me unable to walk, blink, or care for myself in an Austrian hospital where no one spoke English. (Talk about a forced meditation retreat.)
The physical recovery was just the beginning. What followed was a deep dive into everything I'd been avoiding:
- Understanding WHY I was constantly seeking external validation
- BREAKING FREE from people-pleasing and performative behaviours
- Learning to TRUST MY INTUITION (even when it made no logical sense)
- Actually IMPLEMENTING all the knowledge I'd collected
- Transforming intellectual understanding into EMBODIED WISDOM
Let's be honest—I was the queen of seeking
I spent years stuck in cycles of distraction, doubt, and searching for validation outside myself.
The story
